我好想你们

6月28号7点早上，

我爸走了。

我没有在他的身边，

只有妈妈在旁边为他念佛经。

嗯。

这样是好的。

今天，7月9号。

爸爸走了12天。

妈妈一个人在家的第5天。

我好想家。

好想爸爸。

他在心里。

我知道。

也好想妈妈。

好想回到她的身边，

和她一起熬过去。

而不是自己一个人在撑着。

如果，

如果我有新币3800，

就好了。

解脱

解脱。希望我爸可以早点随佛上天堂。

不想，真的不想再看到他这么辛苦。

那种无能为力的感觉。

真的不好受。

分担不到他的辛苦，

只能看着他辛苦。

逐渐消瘦的身体。

时而急促的呼吸。

偶尔伴随着绞痛的咳嗽。

已经4天没有进食了。

只是靠几滴水来维持生命。

尊重他和家人的意愿，

一切随缘。

佛祖，请指引我爸走向光明之路。

DADDY

I take an emergency leave to go my hometown once I received call.

My daddy's willpower is very strong.

But we don't want him to continue suffering anymore.

He already have a hard life,

hope he can find his own happy way after human life.

Hope he will be happy in heaven and know many friends there.

Dad, no worries to me and mum.

We will be very good and will take care of ourselves.

You are always in our heart.

If I wish to talk to you,

I will look at the sky and talk to you.

You will be our angel forever.

And I am so lucky to have you as my dearest daddy. 

Hope afterlife we will be as a father and daughter again.

I LOVE YOU LIKE YOU LOVE ME MUCH.